Omg.

I had the worst day at work today. Problems popping up left and right with a cranky older pharmacist barking orders at me. Wtf. Not only barking orders but seemingly belittling me along the way in the presence of other pharmacists – not cool.

I usually don’t like to turn to people when I’m extremely upset like that but today I did call someone for once during lunch and it was all I needed to feel alright again. He’s in my head, more than I like him to be. But I think it’s okay because he’s one of the good ones left out there. Sigh I couldn’t have been anymore luckier to have found him. :)))

tsk

men, lucky ol lucky men.

yeah yeah, girls get away with a ton of shit, like free dinners, skipping lines at bars, and crying their way out of speeding tickets.

but f u men, you don’t have to deal with the woman things – like emotional swings during different periods of the month, the sensitivity of girls dealing with other girls, the judgemental glares from strangers.

i’m pretty much a tomboy 3 weeks out of the 4 in a month.  but that one damned week…

bleh

not sure if it’s the time of the month or what……but this is how i feel at the moment..

and so it begins.. the unavoidable stuff that they talked about in the zodiac compatibility readings, that kind of bs.

w/e

i can understand you can’t be happy that i’ve found happiness..

 

but don’t try to rain on my happiness please.

Life is…

…finally falling into place. I’ve got great friends all around me, a steady job that isn’t too stressful, a house lined up, support from my parents, an amazing dog to always keep me company, and a nerd to stimulate parts of my brain that have laid dormant for so long.

I skipped out a lot on updating in the last 6 months. It was a dark period of my life that I don’t like going back to. I was forced to be someone I’m not, and I’ve learned first hand that I can’t be with someone that will try to cage me. Of course the relationship started off great like all new relationships do. But over time it became jealous and reared its ugly controlling head. I missed out on a log during those 6 months and I’m not sure why i let it get to that point. Things include 700 x 6 = 4200 worth of rent I could have saved, Vegas, shitty snowboarding trips ruined, sxsw, naked and famous, getting fat due to restricted work out sessions… And to top it off, my sanity. I had to change completely who I was and watch how I talked to people, touched people, just everything. It was all so messed up. I don’t know why I put up with that for so long.

I deserve to be happy now. Happy and loved for who I am, and to remain free to be who I want to be. Bleh. Why the hell did I put up with that for so long? It’s in the past now, but it still angers me just to think of it. never again will I let that kind of thing happen to me. never.

alis volat propiis.