BLAH..
today was js a complete blah day. 1st i trampled to school in a hurry at 9:35 am to take a quiz while getting rained on and splashing into 5 puddles on the way, which completely soaked through my tennis shoes/socks into my cold feet, and i had to continue in the rain to haul ass to class, which didnt’ even give the quiz anyway until 10am.
then, i got the hardest stupid freaking rx of all the rxes we’ve done in compounding and it was sooo shady because they asked us to do something that we had never done in lab – when the mp/pp ratio isn’t matched up what do you do? apparently you make your OWN, i guess. and then at the same time iw as freaking out because i thought i made too much gel and would get deducted from my grade but all i did was simply follow the instructions.. and then it took like 10 minutes for my gel to become gel-like while last time it only took about 4 minutes, so my heart was scaring itself around the end.
then, the wc bus decided to take it dandy ol time as i huddled outside in the 45 degree weather with gusts of wind that almost blew me over, fuckin a.
and this was all after my <3 flopped and waking up to dreams of people selling me out and not believing me. abandon-ment i’d like to call it.
so now i am sitting here faced with all this material to study for the next few days while all i really need is a drink or something to get my mind off how bad today has been.
so i have decided that life is not fair and you must deal with what lands in your basket. and be above all – accept what happens as a consequence of what you yourself have done wrong (or haven’t done, in my case – chickenshit and all). don’t blame others, don’t blame the heavens or hell, don’t blame fate, etc. because in the end part of it is because of you and only you.
