DREAMS

i started keeping a dream log and now i’m starting to remember a lot of my dreams again. i’m not sure if this is a good or bad thing because i am so emotionally connected to my dreams after i wake up. in the dream world i usually dream of something that is unreal or highly unlikely to ever happen and then when i’m awake it’s sad because in the dream it was so perfect or good….and then i know it will never be in reality. it makes me a little sentimental/bittersweet, but at the same time i know to think nothing of it because dreaming and reality are two very very different things.

but it just leaves a bitter taste in my mouth and makes me miss certain people that i care about in my life. i want to call em, but i don’t want to either because……what’s the mothereffin point?

oo weeee

love my new job, apartment, and life except for the fact that it is far away from my best friends.  i love being independent now and on my own!

the job is relatively easy for the amount i get paid!  not sure if i’ll be doing it for the rest of my life, but it sure is a damn good start.

i’m so grateful/lucky to have this job!!!! team anderson! woohoo

NEW!

new everything, all at once.  life truly does happen in clumps.

new job: MD Anderson offered me an inpatient pharmacist evening shift.  this has been my dream job upon graduation since march 23 when i learned that i didn’t match.  well, i guess any inpatient job would have been great, but to have it at md anderson is the sexy icing on the cake.

new car: taking over my mom’s sweet Infiniti EX i have decided.  it’s not new, it’s not the color i wanted, but it’s loaded with everything i could ever want.

new apartment: well actually this one is still in the works.  i have to move out by tuesday so i’ll be living at home for a few weeks to save money in the beginning.  but i’m looking to move to cityplace (pictured below) or in with my friend mark in his sweet townhome near downtown. either way, it’ll be hands-down awesome.

NEW CHAPTER IN MY LIFE: BEGIN.

the only constant in life is change.. and i am all for changing with the times.

i am NOT for molding yourself to gain approval of someone or the mass public.  why should you care so much what they think?  why can they not accept you for who you are, as you are?  if they can’t, then maybe they shouldn’t even be worth your time anyway.  i feel that way, and feel the same about those who come in my life that i cannot fathom compatibility with.  i surround myself with those that i respect, and so i in turn care about what they think of me too.  but, only them, as they are worth my time and thought..

uh huh.

it’s done.  this is it!  as far as schooling goes – until i come up with a bright idea to enroll into another few years for some other degree or major achievement, which i do not foresee in the near (or ever) future.

it feels great.  the old vivian is back – happy with life, social, and just downright awesome.  i’ve missed feeling so carefree like this for awhile.  the last year of school really kicked my ass, and i’m glad it’s really over.

i had a reunion with austin and the chicas these past 5 days.  it was crazy fun, like old times.  i am growing up a little, and now i’m really really trying to decide whether it’ll be houston or austin for the next year.  other big decisions in my life are the next car i’m going to invest in since my vw is really about to fail on me.

*sigh, life is good.